A psychotic dream

wow. i just had a gory dream! i guess subconsciously.. i'm a psychotic person. (i cant describe or phrase myself properly, so try visualizing)

it was dark.. a little girl on a swing. there was a little boy standing in front. The swing was going to and fro slowly.. and she start to get faster and faster. then speed lines filled the 'screen', forming many many laughing faces. They were making fun of the 2 kids. it's then i realised tht the kids are blind. i nv see them talked too. The girl on the swing went faster and faster, swinging through their bodies with a 'piat' sound. Blood splurted out everywhere, leaving a big bloddy hole in each person.

Then i see another 'vision'. A guy is operating on a girl. I don't think he's a doctor.. he was wearing a brown.. suit? and white collar shirt. Cant rmb his face. i'm not sure if that girl on the table is the little girl on the swing. Bcos the one being operated seems older, around 12yrs old. And.. my dream has an aim O_O I'm suppose to go back in time to stop the opearation and save the girl from the 'evil surgeon'.

The dream was long and quite detailed. but i cant rmb much now. It's all bits and pieces T_T maybe next time i'll hug a video camera to sleep..

i think i DID managed to went back in time to stop the operation. Together the girl and i caught hold of the surgeon. i was holding this little metal hammer. My hands were trembling and feeling weak. But to save ourselves, i started hitting the surgeon. His hand, his face, his eyes. OMG. i'm sick. But even in my dream, i did not dare see where i was hitting. Just anyhow wave but i know i hit e right spots. scary! Anw, i thought he was dead, so i grabbed the girl's hand and ran away. Went threw alot doors. and stairs. And CRAP. the surgeon still alive. he "half run and crawl", fell down the stairs and grab my hand. O_O

before tht i hit his face, and blinded him.. so when i look at him, his eyes, nose all closed. somehow glued. i donno. i also cant rmb wad else happened. brrrr... i want sweet dreams!