Monday, December 18, 2006

determination

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I must jia you. in many prospects.

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JIA YOU!!! OOSH! =)

Sunday, December 17, 2006

INSECT

Hi hi! Let's have a 'morning' post to start the day! =D Had a nightmare. How do i start.. ok, yesterday about 7.30pm++, my WORST enemy came to my house!!! It was TV time and i decided to go to my parent's room to have a 'movie' session! THEN i saw it. I think he saw me too. He was on the FLOOR. The moment i stepped into the room and 'screamed', he wiggle3 to the cupboard!!!! OMG! Started calling for my dad (mum not home, sis chicken, uncle watch tv) but he say why go bother it when he wont bite or whatever. WHAT??? How can ANYONE IGNORE HIM??? He's creating 'emotional turmoil' to me, erm.. zhao chen kun rao.. gei wo liu xia ying(1) ying(3)!!! Got him, NO ME!! Got me, NO HIM!! I cant let him stay in the same space with me. yi shan bu neng liu er hu!!! (one mountain no 2 tigers!)

Dad wasn't in a good mood so.. i HAD to give in and retreat into living room.. Before tht, i wanted to 'evacuate' the room. It's so dangerous. I closed the door, and attempt use cloth to cover the 'horizontal hole' below door. But dad say i crazy and undo everything!!! -_- ... Living room is not my rong sheng zhi chu too.. uncle want watch soccer, i had to retreat AGAIN into my room. AND TRY forget about my tv and.. the pest!! I called my creator- MUM. mum said she could only come back and take HIS life about 11pm.. WHAT!!! That's like 3hrs plus! He would have fleed. -feels dizzy-

Anw, i really felt like slacking and watch tv, i decided to challenge the master room again. I did few warm-ups, and tried looking around.. and run in and jump on bed! Away from floor obviously. i can FEEL his presence.. omg.. ok, tried concentrating on tv. Sis very good, i hao bu rong yi sit on bed, she had to call me out TWICE.

Soon, sis went out too. And dad went to sleep in my room.. Berry now under the bed. Quite a dangerous spot i shall say. i msged sis asking if she think he would make friends with HIM.. Though i wont rather they be enemies and eat HIM up.

Time was 9.30pm+, HE re-appeared. BEHIND THE DOOR!!!!!!!! I almost freak-out. i had a shock and jumped back slightly (really bounce back), HE then faster hide back behind door. I was wa kao! Continue watch tv.. every few secs eyes will roll to side and check.. Then unexpectedly, he came out slightly again!!! I had a shock AGAIN and bounced back! HE then quickly hide behind door again. .... Think he's afraid of me too??? He like came out to peep twice, saw me, and hide back in O_O Msged sis. she say 'good luck with the insect'. That's a good word-insect, haha. BUT she's jian si bu jiu-ing again!! I really want to run out, grab a tio ba (some flat broom or sorts) and use as weapon. At least he's reachable distance, i can stomp him with the broom! Think he decided to go for way-out 2. He crawl to the other side of door- the vertical hole part, the screw areas?? Well, i have no idea why i can still detect him. i SAW HIM. I tried calling uncle's hp (don wan wake up dad), but he never on. Had to call out softly to uncle. End up dad woke up. Even more pissed. Say he couldn't even sleep in peace T_T

When i told dad HE's behind door, he open and i saw HIM crawling down to floor, dad tried to step on HIM and catch HIM with bare hands but failed. HE was quick. Wriggled to behind bed and disappeared. Not able to catch it, dad angrily left the room, this time go sis's room to sleep =( stupid insect's fault.

Now HE could be anywhere. Behind or above me. Anw, Berry came out and sat outside toilet, mat area. I wanted go carry him, but suddenly donno how HE appear in the toilet!! Berry gave chase, followed into toilet. i was: Berry come back! berry come back! /i really scared he'll eat it up. Cos my dog did O_O (cant rmb) Anw INSECT flee here n there, berry also chase. Dad came in and save the day. He caught it with tissue and threw it away. GREAT! Told dad that bcos of him, i can now jiao ta shi di (leg on floor) haha.. not sure if he got it.

Nightmare. Think his spirit come haunting me at night. I dreamt that 5 of him come back into my room. Cant rmb how but managed kill of them. It was damn freaky sick. Them appearing in my dream!! EEW.

Long post. Type until sleepy -_- haha.

oh ya, felt quite accomplished when blowing berry dry after his bath. From wet and soaky to furry and fluffy. =)

ok nitex. >_<

Saturday, December 09, 2006

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AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i seriously want to kill myself. This is meaningless!!!! *BANGS HEAD AGAINST WINDOW <--can't die, so only can self-torture

OH MANNNNN!!!!!! ................................ BRAIN FREEZE!!!!!! I'm getting pissed. Starting only vexed, but still can be funny. NObody seems to care when i self-torture, so i decided to torture my sis's cat. Flipped him here and there, pluck his loose fur etc. BUT!!! BUT!!!! I still cant completely 'venge' my frustration.....................................

*ROLLS AROUND ROOM 30 DEGREES

ARGH.

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

Random Grumbles

Good evening =)

Erm.. Like i said, been feeling quite 'haix' these days. :p Whenever i have a certain gush of feeling (eg. angry or sad), i'll have the urge to write or type. Mostly write. Bcos no one else except myself sees it. But wouldn't have any papers or computer. Now tht i'm at home with the comp, my emotion not as strong anymore. Haha.. So.. not very sure what to grumble now.

Kinda complicated. At times when i felt i have the courage or energy to move on, i get demoralized or pushed down. And when i'm feeling very depressed, happy things (even just a little) would happen to cheer me on. Ups and downs. Haha. Reminds me of a story i read very very long ago =)

One day a farmer found a abandoned stead (healthy strong horse rite?) and brought it home happily. But his this particular neighbour said: Don't be too happy yet. Next day or smth, his only son rode the horse but fell and broke his leg. The farmer was very very sad. His neighbour said: Don't be too upset. Few days later, the emperor summon all young men to go to war and fight some villians. But bcos his son was physically unfit, he was allowed to stay home. The farmer got relieved and happy.

Forgot if the neighbour still said anything, or if the story continued. But the rough idea is there. Haha.. It may not be something good when something u THINK that is good happened. It may not be as bad as u thought too.. O_o

..So.. my mood considered balanced out at the moment.. haha..

P/s: Really thank u friends out there tagging my board =) It tells me that u pple still reads my blog and this gives me encouragement to type more! Tho nothing educational or smth. haha..

Wish everyone out there well and happy..! =)